This is my first online journal and to be honest I’m not sure what to expect. My motivation for starting to write this is the fact the I realize how much of a stranger I am to myself. I tell myself I have life all figured and planned out, but as I reach the milestones to accomplish the goals I’ve mapped out, I am left wondering if I really know what I want. Maybe all of this work I’m putting in is for nothing. I guess I hope that writing down my thoughts and experiences will make me face what I’m feeling and help me understand why suicide isn’t the gift I think it is. Suicide, I know, is a touchy topic so it’s probably best I save my discussion on that for a later entry. I think I’ll try this out for a year and after it’s all done I’ll reevaluate my positions on things to see if some time has really changed anything. Good night world. (1/365)

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