So this is the first post I will be doing, and most likely I will do many more in time.
All my friends call me Bubbles, I am a wife, and a mother. I will be 25 this year.
The last few weeks have been very hard for me, so I am returning to writing my feelings out, I used another site before but found out that it shut down a few months ago, so I found this place and I really hope it is as good as the old one, I really miss it.
So the thing that has brought me back to writing is that 1 week and 1 day ago I was in the hospital having an emergency surgery because I lost my baby, I was suppose to be 14 weeks pregnant that day but instead I was in the ER bleeding uncontrollably. Since then I have been having a hard time with my grief with knowing two of my children I will never hold or watch them grow.
Yesterday was Mother’s Day and even though I feel very blessed to have two living healthy children it was still very hard on me, because it was exactly a week from the day I said goodbye to a baby I loved and waited for 2 years to have. I dont know how long it will take to heal, but i cant keep bothering my family with my sadness so I need an outlet for my pain, my grief and a place where I can go and write about the family I love including the child I lost.