Nothing Entertaining

Right now I can’t think of anything to write about, but I feel like writing or at least typing. Today I got out of school at 1:15pm and I started walking across to my older sister’s school so she can drive me home and I wanted to see some of my friends. I didn’t get to see any of my friends, but I did some thinking and I think it was good. It has been a long time since I walked home from school. While I was walking I realized or at least I think I realize what my problem really is. Maybe what happened to me so long ago when I was molested by a girl one or two years older than me acting like if she had a guy friend that liked me.  In elementary school I rode the bus and the bus driver assigned us seats. For some reason I always got assigned to sit next to her. I don’t know what was going on  at the time. She told me that she knew a guy that would like me and I was like okay. So, then she told me that she had to find out what size my boobs were and I didn’t get it, until she put her hand under my shirt and touched me. This kept going on for a little while longer, like days and months longer. I didn’t tell my parents because one day she told me not to tell anyone and if I did she had a gun in her backpack and she would shoot everyone. I believed her like an idiot and didn’t say anything, until I was about to graduate school and she was already gone. I would have been probably around 8 or 9 years old and now I am 16 years old. I still remember what it was like and I don’t really talk about it with anyone. Anyways back to my main point, I think that’s the reason why I fall for guys so easily. And I don’t know why I can’t forget about TGITPS or as the whole thing means The Guy In The Purple Shirt. I don’t know his name so that’s why I call him that. Anyways, I try to forget about him for reasons that I just want to. And I do that by liking someone else. In 2011 and 2012 I started liking a guy named Richard and I thought he liked me, but that was the end of eighth grade and we go to different high schools now. So, in the last year I got over Richard sort of, but I started liking another guy that I only knew his name and found him on Facebook and we started talking. But thing more important thing is that I still can’t get over TGITPS. I just don’t know why, but I just can’t. can anyone help me?

XOXO lizquiet

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