Today seems to just be filled with heartbreak. I buried my best friend today, and Edwin decided that he never wanted me to talk to him again, as if its that easy. I gave my brother my phone and I am logged out of both Facebook and oovoo so I am not that tempted to talk to him. Yet there isn’t a day that goes by where something happens that I want to tell him about. Then I remember how he acted so brusquely today and told me that I had to be strong and get over Lexi’s death. I don’t think he realizes how much he hurt me by saying that. I’m not a guy. I don’t bottle all my emotions up and pretend everything is just dandy. She was my best friend. She always knew how to cheer me up, make me laugh and smile. How can I just forget all that? Sure I can move on after like six months but not weeks. I struggle to find reasons to keep living. I just keep falling short.