Dear diary, I have never been more happier, I have never been more at peace. Today I am pulling the plug, I can no longer fight anymore but for the first time in my life I finally feel like everything will be better and it will because all this agony will come to an end . I tried and tried but nothing worked nothing helped. I don’t want to be one of those people who are suffering in pain 247….It hurts and no one should ever live like this. Why is it ok to put a wounded animal out of it’s misery but not ok for humans ? pain is pain. This week I did a few things I always wanted to do and ate all my favorite foods… I apologized to people I have hurt and spent some time with a few of the most important people in my life. This is it. I am not sad I am happy and finally relaxed. Maybe when I am gone they will understand.