Just been a stressful four years with no breaks for me. From being cheated on to being homeless. I got a lot on my mind and finally gave in and wanted to write about some of it. I do have my ups and downs due to my depression. Who doesnt with depression. I have been not to write about it on facebook and was judge on there by people. But its my page and i can write what i want. If people dont like it. They could hide what i am saying so they dont see it. Even my own family judges me. Still try me what not to say and such. I have no local friends and tried to make some where live and only made two really but i havent seen them in like two years. My very best friend lives in california and had a blast with him. Like going to the movies and such. I miss hanging with him. Trying to get my life in order and some how. Something messes it up. Its hard to get around in this town. No bus system really. Just some two bit small bus company that come to your door and take you where you wanna go and pick you up at a certain time. But they stop at 4pm and dont run on the weekends. Plus you gotta call two days in adavance if you need to go somewhere. I have a phobia of driving since i was in a really bad car accident. Its sometimes for me to walk. I was suicidal in my life before. But the thought has come into my mind once in a while. I wanna move to orlando one day. I know ill have a better chance there to start a new life. Get back into really being happy again. Cause like i said before. I did write what was on my mind before and had a lot of bad opinions in my comments and it didnt help at all. But hopefully ill write more instead of having it bottled up.