I have decided I need to tell someone I am a Webcam Model. I feel like I am leading a double life and it is slowly killing me. What people think of me means a lot. I would love nothing more than to be the kind of girl that can speak her mind frankly and do what she wants and not care at all what people think about it. I am working on becoming that person, but in the mean time I still have many steps I have to take to grow into that kind of confident person. The thought of telling someone what I do is terrifying to me. I understand exactly what they are going to say to me, or maybe even behind my back, because I thought the very same thing.The problem is, I don’t think I will be able to get other people to understand my view on it. All I can think of is the nasty things they will think of me. Friends mean everything to me and I have a feeling the second it gets out, I will lose every single person I have in my life right now.