we could live beside the ocean

It’s been a few days since I’ve written.using my cell phone doesn’t help.if I get a call mid blog it erases everything I’ve written.so I’ve made several attempts then gave up. Hmmm. Things with me and keatsu are so different for sure. I find myself considering breaking up. It hurts. Does that mean I shouldn’t? This new passion I’ve found aside, me and keatsu have been fighting and struggling since day one and either I need the struggle our after two long years we’ve finally found peace and I’m bored? We never talk we just yell or fight and say I love you repeatedly…doesn’t that mean anything…

The other day keatsu left for work but before her left he stood st the door and said I love you and I’m like I love you too but he kept saying it like five more times it really pissed me off.

And yes I like John a lot.how could I not? The way we have sex is passionate it’s fulfilling its fucking hypnotic and I get the spins like I’ve been drinking when I’m with him. And I like talking to him. We end up in some interesting topics and I suppose being able to have intelligent conversation, laugh, and be understood is a turn on as well. Keatsu is impossible to talk to.complains about absolutely everything.would rather me never leave the house without him wants me to work doesn’t want me to have my own car he can use it to work mad far away he expects me to work right here in town. Ugh. We’re not even intimate anymore I don’t mean just sex I mean everything.we used to be so cuddly so clingy so comfortable all over and with each other….and that really hurts. I would want to work it out. But we’ll always have our problems.I can’t fight anymore. But if we did believe me I know myself.hermit status will ensue…I wouldn’t do it to be with John. I’d probably see him less…not because I don’t honestly like him but.sigh, nobody wants to admit the relationship is done and it isn’t going to be back…

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