Am very busy with exams at the moment,
well as far as the definition of “busy” reaches…
I know I must study harder but it just doesn’t work at the moment, okay.
But that’s not the worse.
Yesterday I left.
I left the fandom I was with from the start and whom I believed I’d always would be with. I couldn’t imagine living without. It hurt too badly.
But now being in it felt so wrong and I just couldn’t do it anymore. It tired me out and took all of my energy for some boy, who doesn’t even look that much like Harry and rarely replies. I also felt terrible and scared because I didn’t want any feelings to develop besides the usual fangirling, but hey, I have a slight feeling they did.
I felt silly.
And I gave up, said my goodbye’s and stepped out.
I don’t know what hurts more now though,
him ignoring me or missing him ignoring me.
You see the problem?
Well Dear Diary, I guess you can note this day as the day I moved on from Jacob Skelton. Aw.