Nothing is going to change unless I do. Oh that is such a cliche. Guess there may be some truth behind that. I don’t know. I don’t know much of anything anymore. Other than I am at a dark place. I’m sick of the circle. I’m depressed because I’m stressed, I’m stressed because I’m overweight, I’m tired because I’m overweight, I’m overweight because I’m depressed. I’ve Googled till my fingers cramp. I’ve read blogs and articles till I’m convinced I have an alien growing inside me. I’ve taken diet pills, anti depressants, gone on benters and body and soul cleanses. It’s all a bunch of crap. I don’t like me. Who have I become? I don’t even know where to start. Something has to change.
Darwin was provoked to publish his theory of evolution on June 18 1858. I’m about to make the same history.