So tired of feeling out of place and alone in this world. Ive suffered from severe anxiety / depression since childhood.it has ruined my life. The feelings of sadness, and despair never subside.from the moment my eyes open the depression hits me like a ton of bricks.maybe itd be easier if it would come and go, rather than be constant. Im so worn down, im sick of going through the motions, pretending to care.i have no desire or interest in anything . I simply exist. I know people have it worse than me, but I am just being honest with about these feelings that consume me. Sadly I worry that they will never subside.they have been there so long.