Jumbled thoughts and unsure dreams

I go into work at 3:30 today, I’m making myself kinda like my job, which is really hard because I’m not a people person at all. I’m a front desk clerk at a hotel which is inside a casino. It sucks. People are ass-holes.

I’m returning to school this August and I have to work while I do so, I really hate looking for a job and I know that no matter what job I get I’ll hate it because it won’t be what I want to do. That’s why I keep telling myself that I like the job that I have, I actually like the people that I work with, it’s the guests that I can’t stand, and all of the noise that goes with working in a casino.

I’m also weaning myself off of Celexa, it’s really fucked with my memory bad. And I can’t just quit because the withdrawals are horrible. I also need to lose a lot of weight. I’m just in a crappy mood today and yesterday.

2 thoughts on “Jumbled thoughts and unsure dreams”

  1. I am sorry about your work situation. Do not underestimate the difficulty of working in a casino. I know it must have its perks, however that is hard work! Late hours,the dramatic environment, I could go on. What do you want to do? I know it doesn’t help, but I do not like what I do,but just dream about the day I will be able to do what I love. Good luck with your endeavors!

  2. Hi, You left a note in my journal on July 4 Thanks! Nobody likes work when it’s not what they really want to do, huh?
    At 60 years old, I am finally doing what I always wanted to do, and that is, to write books. I’ve kept a diary all my life, and now I finally have the courage to write a book. I’ve given myself till August 4 to finish stage 1.
    🙂 All the best with your job and with school when it starts!

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