We all say things we don’t mean. Why we do will always be questioned. But after we say them there’s no way to take it back. We can try and say we didn’t mean it but it’s already done. There are several reasons why we say these things. And it can only be your own reason. I’ve said things I certainly didn’t mean. But after I did, I knew there was no going back. Maybe I was hoping that I would be told that I was wrong. Wanted some reassurance that everything was going to be ok. But these words that were coming out of my mouth weren’t words that I wanted to think about. The more I thought about it the more it ate at me. I was saying someone else’s words. Another’s way on what they wanted. It wasn’t what I wanted. I was to scared to say what I wanted. And when you say what wasn’t meant, you destroy everything that could of been. How do you recover what’s destroyed?
You don’t. You have to realize after your attempt to take it all back, that if who you said it to really wanted to understand that you were wrong, they would of already. You fight for something that’s not there. You’re only hurting yourself.