So none of you probably care…but I’m in love. I am young, but I am in love. Idk, maybe its lust…
I could tell you about every little thing that has happened over the past year on this Roller Coaster of emotions. But you don’t need to know. The guy I’m in love with (or think I’m in love with) could possibly be considered a player. He has a way with the ladies, and he deffinitely has a way with me. I’m so young. I really shouldn’t even be thinking about love. But ever since I was a little girl, I always dreamed of a relationship like this.
I’m just gonna come out and say this, our love is illegal. He is 4 years older than me and I am under 18. Imagine not being able to hang out with your boyfriend in public. My parents have no idea that we are dating. So, I sneak out to see him.
One time in the summer of 2013, when we would hang out every night, we took the daring move of going skinny dipping. I am so dumb… I would hang out with him till 5 in the morning even though I knew I had dance practice at 7.
I don’t know where I’m going with this journal. I guess I’ll try to put into words my love for him.
I have never ever ever in my whole life fallen for a guy this hard. He had me at “Hey.” seriously. I love everything about him. Even his flaws. I like the way he’s ticklish, even when I barely scratch his tummy. I like when I pull in his driveway and I see him standing there with the biggest smile on his face. I like that I can be my complete self around him. He thinks I’m the cutest thing when my hair is an absolute mess. I suprisingly like the way he makes me so vulnerable. This guy has become such a huge part of my life I couldn’t imagine it without him. He means everything to me. I can honestly say I fell in love with my bestfriend.