I seem to be constantily searching for something to fill this void. I have made all the wrong choices in my life. It seems like when a life changing decision was put in my path I choose the wrong one. I am not complaining on where my life is at this moment in time. I am more disappointed in where I am at because it could be so much more. I can’t say what void I am trying to fill only that there is a deep emptiness I feel inside of me. It saddens me to no end knowing I have done this to myself and no motivation to change. I can dream of change and can map out a plan to change. But I seem to fall a day late and a dollar short. Instead I choose to try filling the void with hobbies, more hobbies and projects than I can handle. I am kidding myself with the illusion of busy work so I don’t have to focus on this void.
Is it Christ I am searching for?