So, i haven’t written, in quite sometime.
So i just realised something. People actually care. even if they don’t quite know you personally, they do care. All this time, i was forced to believe that everyone leaves, and that no body really gives a damn, but now. its like I’ve been lying to myself all this time.
The guy, I’ve been crushing on feels the same way. I didn’t say anything because he also happened to be my best friend. I guess, everything is falling back into place. I know it will. it will take hellah a lot of time. But I’m gonna wait 😀 ..
So lets name my ‘Crush’ .. Uhmmm… Jake? Nah. Caleb? Nope. Oh i got it! Lets just call him ‘Code red’ haha.
So.. Code red, hasn’t asked me out yet. and i don’t think anything will happen right now. We are just trying to stay friends, even though i really want him to. Im just scared. I was brought in a totally different environment and culture, and if my mom, or even dad gets to know, i will most definitely be slaughtered 🙁 .. but i am a teenager! Sometimes, i more confused about my self, than i am with life.
This post sure was super long. Im gonna stop now.
xox CrazyCrazy 😛