What to Do

Some things are hard to talk about. I once got molested. I had sex with an ex-friends boyfriend. That wasn’t out of revenge I just thought he loved me and that they were done. I have a boyfriend now. He is into doing stuff. I feel comfortable with him but I don’t tell him everything. Every time I do anything I either feel the fear I felt so long ago while my sisters 18 year old boyfriend was fingering me, or the guilt I felt having sex with my friends boyfriend. I want to make my boyfriend happy. He says he can wait, but I’m worried I won’t ever get over this. I can see a future with this man, but I’m scared. I don’t talk to anyone about all this because I just can’t get myself to say anything that needs to be said.

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