So today I have decided that a lot of things in my life need to change. After having a near close break up with my partner of 4 years that could of torn out new little family to pieces before it really even began, I have come to the conclusion that if I don’t love me, how can I expect anyone else to?
I have heard many hard truths today, from being overweight, to controlling and miserable, I know that to save my relationship, and to give my gorgeous little boy the best life that I can, I need to fix ‘me‘
So here is the plan, and unlike every other get fit & focused scheme I have tried in the past, this one is going to last more than a few weeks. Even if it means that I have to document every little single thing that I do on a day to day basis and let the lovely people of the internet critic and complain to me!
First on the list is my DIET, I don’t eat an awful lot, but what I do eat is smothered in sugar or laden with salt, and my portion control is diabolical, I could literally eat a horse! So starting slow, I want to reduce my calories but increase my meals. So little and often is the idea! I am up early each morning so I should have more than enough time to fit in at least 4-5 meals in a day! (tiny meals though!)
Second is WATER, I drink no water, ever. I can’t remember the last time I drank a glass of water, which is insane as I am always so thirsty. I have never drank a lot, but I know that the benefits of drinking water seriously out way the negatives ( if there even are any negatives?) The new aim is 3 litres of water per day. Which seems a daunting amount and I might have to work myself up to that slowly!
Smoking! Smoking has to go, I quit for nearly a year while I was pregnant, but when I went back to work I missed the social aspect and reached back for the fags! This has to stop, its bad for me and its even worse for my little boy. No more! There are 17 ciggerettes left in my packet, and once they have gone, they have gone! Plus this should help me gain the good kind of pounds! £££!
SMILE! I need to be smiling more, I feel like I have forgotten how to do this and Im not 100% sure why?! I think its got something to do with being uncomfortable in myself!
There is probably more but my brain has stopped working after 4 very long days at work, so tomorrow morning I will be checking in with weights, measurements, food diary and god knows what else!
But for now! Goodnight Journal!