I felt the need to start writing again, however I found out that the place where I used to write…opendiary…is no longer there. This saddens me. I had been writing there off and on since college. I feel like a piece of me has been lost. 🙁
Nic said something to me on the way home from the movies tonight that really got me thinking. He said, “when I feel pain I will do anything to make it stop. I have a high pain tolerance but when it gets too bad I go to the doctor and get checked out.”
Now granted he was talking about physical pain, but all I could think about was emotional pain. Why do I put up with it? Why do I let it eat away at me? The answer is simple…hope…that little spark of hope that someday this will all work out dulls the pain just enough to make it bearable.