I don’t know what’s wrong with me. So I ask you, what is wrong with me? I don’t have the answer to this to get me to think better of myself. I sit/lay here in my bedroom most of the time while I am at home. I mainly think about all my mistakes that I have made from my past to now. For some reason I only focus on the negatives of my life and not the positive. I want to change, I really do. I just don’t exactly know how and no one really knows me and they don’t know how I feel. I feel really lonely all the time. I have friends and family to talk to and I know that I can trust them, but for some reason I shut them out and they don’t notice anything because I hide everything behind and the smiles, laughs, and whatever else to make them think I live a happy life. Yes, everyone knows that I have my times of getting angry, sad, or happy, but they don’t know that it goes deeper than that. Don’t get me wrong because I do love my family and friends so very much, they are very dear to me. I don’t know how to deal with this. I took a few tests that were online for bipolar and depression and it turns out that I am mostly likely both of them came out to be very positive that I have bipolarness and depression. I hate knowing this but in the end I know it is for the good.