It seems that no matter what I do to try and please my mother, I just can’t get through to her. Every time I make a mistake, all she does is blame me or bring something that happened at least once in my life back up to support her. It doesn’t matter whether it was a day ago or years ago there is always something that she brings up again and I have to try and fight back without getting her mad, but that never goes as planned. Eventually whatever we are talking about something gets both of us and we get mad at each other and end up shouting and I end up in my room crying to myself and telling myself what if I had just been the one child that my mom lost in miscarriage or the one that developed cancer instead of my younger brother. I think to myself about suicide but I stop myself from doing it because I am a coward and I can’t handle doing it on my own.