Jan 2nd, 2015 (AKA literally what just happened???)

OK!  SO!
Today was unexpected.  In a very bad way.
I’m not going to go into much detail because it’s the middle of the night and I’m angry and tired and in a world of pain but basically…
-I’m now living with my dad
-I hurt myself for the first time this year, really badly too
-I don’t think my mum and I will be ok for a long time
-I’m 80% certain that I absolutely hate my brother in the fullest way possible
-I need to eat something, I’ve only eaten a small plate of Indian leftovers.

Tomorrow should be good, I’ll be at Zach’s all day plus when I get home there’ll be food (dad was on this crazy diet so we don’t have any food in the house).  I’m excited for tomorrow, despite all that happened today.
Shit my eyes and head hurt.  Crying for 6 hours straight takes a lot out of a girl 😛

-My dad and Zach.  The two of them have been the most helpful distraction
-The movie Clueless.  It’s hilarious and smart and awesome and great.
-Bad online personality tests that tell you what tribe you’d be in if you were in Avatar: The Last Airbender (I would be fire apparently).  So much fun.

That’s all for now.  Sorry for the anger and sadness and stuff.
Happy tomorrow dears 🙂 🙂 🙂

2 thoughts on “Jan 2nd, 2015 (AKA literally what just happened???)”

  1. HI Little Birdie, I am sorry you are in such pain. I am glad you have family and a friend for support and hope you do get a good meal in you. Take care of yourself as best you can. It is so good that you maintain that optimistic approach in the worst of times. No matter what just keep putting one foot in front of the other. The bad days are going to happen. Know that better ones will come. Hugs to you! If you are not seeing a counselor it would be a good idea and meds too if needed. Stay strong! Hugs to you.

  2. Hey littlebirdie. First, I really like your cute name. Second, I’m really sorry that you are in pain and I super hope that you get better soon. And third, super funny that you take those stupid quizzes too–I do a few every time I get on the internet, which is a waste of time, but whatever. Loved your journal, really funny, and I really hope you keep on writing!!

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