I wrote previously about the fact I have some health issues and they are pretty bad right now but I am starting to feel a little better. That’s all I want to share about that though, it gets talked and dealt with enough all day, so not going to write about it too.
Anyway, I have a lot of time on my hands. I try to fill it up as much as I can by reading and learning new things. I get some kind of high from it, I can’t explain it, but it definitely excites me to dive into something new and open my mind up to something fresh. I am unemployed, I’ve been on disability for a few years. I used to bartend for a little over ten years. I think that actually made me crazy, lol. The stories behind everything are so long so I’m not going to get into all the back/past stuff. But lately I’ve finally been thinking and trying to work on my future. I’ve also been working on my spirituality and I tell you what, I’ve never been so full of faith, inner peace, HOPE, and just a totally different but beautiful view and excitement about life, and I still have a long way to go, learning wise. The awesome part about it is that the two go together for me…..my spirituality and my future. I have this wanting and yearning in my heart to one day be a life coach, for people with addiction, mental health and legal issues. I want to one day work at halfway house’s and run groups, help those who are staying there and going through the process of making a better life for themselves, learning how to live in the “real world” again, following rules, trying to stay sober, etc. I went through all of this, I know all to well what it all is like, I can also share my experiences.
It’s a HUGE GOAL/DREAM for me, but I feel I just have so much passion and drive for it. There is a lot of hard work, dedication and schooling before any of this can be a reality for me, but I’m not going to let that scare me off, I’m going for it. I feel that’s what my life’s purpose is, to help, to give back, to hopefully be able to help people, people who are like myself, people who are going through hard times and have no where to turn, people who are still suffering.
So that’s where I’m at right now. Learning and helping as much as I can and also trying to deal with my health issues. I have a few other things going on, relationship crap (I say crap bc thats really what it is right now, one big mess.) But hopefully this time, I’m strong enough not to fall for anymore of her shit. I treated her like gold.
Anyway, if anyone was reading, thank you. I hope you have a peaceful and beautiful Sunday.