They say that life begins when you step out of your comfort zone. I guess to me starting this journal is stepping out of my comfort zone again. I used to be able to keep a steady journal/online journal when I was younger especially in my teens because back then I had more to say. I guess I have reached that point in my life again where I have a lot to stay, and honestly no way of expressing it without either getting in trouble for it, or having everyone pissed at me. Seems like that is how it has been lately. I am changing that. No more speaking about it or bitching about it. For now on my personal thoughts will be in here.
Let me tell you a little bit about who I am. Well my real name is not important, but on here you can call me x_charmedbookworm. I am in my late 20’s even though I do not look it.I am not the tallest girl around, and that’s ok. I am just your average daydreamer.I always have my head in the clouds, which has been getting me into trouble lately. I love books, I love a way to escape everyday life for awhile. I guess with this journal I can. I can say that I am full of endless love, and mystery. I love being able to leave people in wonder. I love to smile and laugh. I also have a talent with a camera, not sure if I want to call myself a photographer anymore or just a girl who loves capturing moments and keeping them forever. It has not been known to anyone else, but I also suffer from depression, even though I have no idea what caused me to have it. With this journal and being able to express my thoughts and emotions maybe I will have a better control over it. There is more about me I would like to tell like, I have a family who I love and they mean everything to me. I also am engaged to a wonderful guy. You guys will here more about that when I choose to write about them.
I guess that is the thing, I don’t know what to say. I guess I will know when I feel the urge to write about my day or how I been feeling or just plain out on what has been going on with me lately. How was my day today? Honestly it has been a bad day for me. It started with work, not going to mention where I work or any names just in case these people decide to snoop around. I am not going to lie I was happy when I first got the job because well honestly it was a job. I have been at my job for 4 months and it’s like never ending bs to deal with. The people mostly. The job keeps me stressed out and just a nervous wreck to the point where I dread even going in. Sometimes I wonder that deep down I am trying to get myself fired so I won’t have to deal with it. Sometimes I just get so fed up with everything that happens there that I am ready to quit. Sometimes I think about doing it, but then I am like don’t because it will ruin your reputation. Today is over, and hopefully tomorrow is better day.
I guess this is a lot for a first entry, I will be sure to write tomorrow when I get home from my hell whole, I mean job.