The day started fine and I’m feeling a little less anxiety about the new non-smoking rule in our apartment building. Never will agree that it’s even a little right. If it’s legal than you should be able to do it in your home. Never mind the insurance companies thinking they can stop the irresponsible’ s from being irresponsible. It would even be acceptable to charge a smoke damage fee in order to keep my right to be comfortable in my home. Well shit here I am getting stirred up about something I have no power over. Which brings me to my next dilemma. I will be getting more income next summer and my life will change. No more state aide! My first priority must be to get a car which will take a couple months. Next goal will be to decide where to move. I am not an apartment person. Back in the 70′ I lived in a commune for a short time. They didn’t work then and they don’t now. I don’t want people to know my personal business and I don’t care to know others unless there is need and I can help. Our world has changed much in 60 years and I will be glad when it is time to go with Jesus.
It’s hard to be alone after 50 for most people and it’s even harder to find someone that you can just relax with. I have found most men in the dating scene at that age have turned into wrinkled teenagers seriously fighting their aged bodies to prove their libido is active. Relationships are never easy but you would hope at the age of 60 you don’t have much to prove and you could relax and enjoy the simple things in life, never mind the desire to slow down times ceaseless clock.
As I write my thoughts I think of you who may take the time to read and want you to know that I would love to hear from you if there is a comment option. It’s all new to me so bare with me.