refocusing my goal…

So here it is: I am about to try something new in my life and I am scared…. I have been trying to figure out why I am so scared about doing it… many things came to mind but untimately one that I think is the truth is that I am afraid I will fail… that I won’t do it right… I am beeing very critical of myself at this point because I want to do it right and I want to feel I got it just right from the very first time… but I keep forgetting that everything new needs time to practise to get it right and make it perfect… and I am not even sure why I am so scared of this… i think I am just too harsh on myself because I also think if I don’t get it right the first time I will lose the desire to go on and try again and I might not like it and my motivation will fade…. as determined as I am… and I havn’t even tried it yet! Okay now you are probably wondering what am I talking about…. and please don’t laugh too hard but I am talking about meditation… 🙂 I know I know it’s all silly and unreasonable because how can u screw up sitting still with your own thoughts, right? Well…. I never really tried before…. so I just think I need to let go of the irrational fear and just go try it…. I have read enough about it and I know what and how to do…. maybe it’s just confronting myself with my inner throughts is what sacres me aswell… and I think once I start i will be fine! 🙂

Oh well… wish me luck! 🙂

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