March 4, 2015 – Readings in Recovery: Step by Step

Step by Step
Wednesday, March 4, 2015
Today, if I extend a kindness to someone and catch myself expecting something in return, even a simple thank you, I have to ask how I am selfless if I expect something in return. At a meeting, am I overtly or unconsciously seeking approval or congratulations if I say how many 24 Hours of sobriety I have if it has no relevance to the discussion? Might I have a “motive?” If I volunteer to drive someone unemployed and whose jobless benefits have run out to a meeting, how service-oriented – what kind of Twelfth-Stepper – am I if I “suggest” a couple of bucks for gas? And if the occasion comes up that I receive a token for however many 24 Hours I have acquired, do I want it “presented” to me standing behind the speaker’s podium, or do I prefer a private exchange with my Sponsor? If I am honest enough to identify anything but a fully altruistic reason for my “service,” something is clearly wrong, maybe not enough to endanger my sobriety but certainly enough to crimp its quality. Today, if I get the opportunity to be of service to someone or if someone needs a simple kindness and if I feel a twinge of indignation or anger if I get nothing in return, may I be indignant at myself for my selfishness – and get to work on it. And our common journey continues. Step by step. – Chris M., 2015

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