Sleepless Nights or Nightmares

I feel like I’m suffocating. But there isn’t really anything that can be done about it. It’s what happens when you have anxiety. Sometimes you just can’t breathe. Other times you feel like you’re having a heart attack. Anxiety comes in many different forms. I realize my “subject” doesn’t have anything to do with anxiety.. well, so you think. Why do people stay up at night? Because they want to? Well yes, some people do. Others, can’t help it. It could be brain chatter or it could be something else. AnxietyNightmares. I have a little of All of the above. Occasionally I’ll have anxiety over something. Like right now. My uncle is BACK in the hospital. He can’t seem to stay out of there. His blood pressure dropped to 52 over 36 or something close to that. The past few nights though, I’ve been having nightmares. It prevents me from sleeping. Perhaps I’m too afraid to sleep? Though I doubt that. Sorta heh. There is also this constant chatter my brain won’t stop doing to itself. Constantly thinking of anything and everything unimportant. Like my birthday coming up, April 1st. And if my uncle is going to dye before or after the celebration. Or what my next nightmare will be about. Our this constant pain I feel in my left side under my breast, directly above my ribs. Or the fact that tears are in my eyes right now and I don’t know why. StressAnxiety over my Uncle J. Sleep deprivation? I honestly don’t know anymore and I don’t know what to do. Keep writing? Maybe.. doesn’t seem like its helping anymore. But maybe it is. I do feel a little better. I just wish I had an actual human to speak with instead of typing on a damn keyboard. I’m off for now. Ja ne. :/

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