I have been worried about going into this summer because although I am moving into the mountains; I will be closer in proximity to many others. I have been afraid that my general demeanor will hinder relationships with others. There have been times where my need for peace and quite have left me with upset friends and most importantly roommates.
Why would I choose to read instead of hang out? I wish the answer were simple. It isn’t anything against the persons. Just a need to be alone. I used to sleep a lot but now I read, study, scribe, tarot, meditate, and many other things. Things I am not ready to let outsiders privy to.
I am using the Osho Zen Tarot Deck 🙂
The first card is 2 of water: Friendliness This card speaks to me about standing on my own and rooting myself into my own practices. Create my own connection with Earth. This is a new form of connection with others. One that is not need based. We can be free to relate to one another and share our gifts without there being any Drama. Cause who needs drama? This card is also telling me that my upcoming separation with those that I have met here. There is no need to be upset. We all have our own path to follow and that is Okay. <3
“You don’t depend on others and you don’t make others dependent on you. Then it is always a friendship, a friendliness. It never becomes a relationship, it is always a relatedness.”
Second Drawing is another Water: Harmony She is so blissful with her heart and third eye connecting. She is telling me to find the joy within. Its there within all of us! She also tells me to be kind to others and myself.
“Let yourself be softer and more receptive now, because an inexpressible joy is waiting for you just around the corner. Nobody else can point it out to you, and when you find it you won’t be able to find the words to express it to others. But it’s there, deep within your heart, ripe and ready to be discovered.”
Silence: Part of my desire to move to the parks is to be silent. This card is telling me that there will be those that come to you. Let them. Do not go to them. There is also much of the NOW in this card. Right now is my resting time before the change of new job, new location, people, etc
“Now is the time to come home to yourself. The understanding and insights that come to you in these moments will be manifested later on, in a more outgoing phase of your life.”
Beyond Illusion: Another card telling me to look within. This is a dreamer card. This card holds a powerful message to me. I went into a guided meditation to seek out my twin. I was wishing that I was wrong on who my twin is but alas I am not. Do not doubt the Dream.
“Drop your opinionated mind, and move inside. There, you can relax into your own deepest truth, where the difference between dreams and reality is already known.”
I have the next 2 and a half weeks before I leave. I will put to use my guidance for today because what I do now will manifest when I have to change my tune to a more outgoing me.