Dear Anyone

Dear anyone,

This is my very first entry for any online diary/journal. I felt like I needed to get some of my thoughts out into the world, and maybe some feedback as well. I’m not even sure where to start with this. I suppose I’ll just begin free writing and see what all comes out.

For the first time in a long time, if not ever, I feel like I am finally doing things right. Let me explain. For a while there, I was not working, I quit school because I changed my mind on my major (again), and I just wasn’t gong after the goals I had set for myself. I felt overwhelmed and lost for a long time, sad even, but didn’t do anything about any of it. Until this past month.

I found a job. Very close to home, and fun! It’s at a movie store, I love movies. I don’t know how it’ll go yet, I’ve only worked three days. Most everyone I’ve met is nice enough, but I keep messing up and I just feel like I don’t belong. I need this job though. I will keep you updated on this.

Next, I have enrolled into a online university (kinda) for my passion – English. I love writing and reading, though I hardly do either these days. And I say ‘kinda’ because I’m not officially enrolled yet, but am almost in!

Lastly, I have just became a foster fur parent for a local rescue organization. This is very rewarding and exciting for me because I love animals and I love being an advocate for them. It is my dream to one day own and operate my own animal rescue. This is also a big deal because I guess I didn’t think I would actually do it so soon.

So, to sum that all up, I am a working girl again after almost a year of not working, I am motivated  to go back to school for something I love very much, and I am helping to save lives by taking in animals in need. Sounds pretty good, right?

I suppose that all is pretty good considering I achieved all those things in a months time. After feeling so sad and lost for so long. I have to say I am pretty proud and surprised by myself. So we shall see where this all goes. I hope you are there with me. I don’t have anyone else, you see?

Sure, I have an amazing and supportive and patient finance, a loving mother and awesome step-dad, but I have no friends. Not one. Acquaintances, sure. I have lots of those. Past co-workers, people I knew from where I used to live, but no friends, and no best friends. I had one, a best friend, but that didn’t work out so well. But I will save that story for another entry.

For anyone reading this, I thank you, so much. Beginning to get these thoughts out to you was not easy. I contemplated deleting this silly thing a few times already. But I will give this a chance, at least. I have already started so much that I am glad I did, I hope this falls in that category as well.

We’ll talk again soon, okay? Tomorrow is kind of a stressful day for me, but I can’t wait to share it with you tomorrow night. Thank you again for reading. Goodnight.

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