The past couple weeks I have been the happiest that I have been in a long time. It’s great not feeling so down and depressed. I had it in my mind that I wanted to change my attitude toward life and see if I could reach the stars. And I can, but it is up to me how far I want to reach, how hard I want to work for that. I should know that hard work pays off, when you want something so much you work to make it possible… especially in the USA.
I guess the point of this entry is that we also need to realize that there are some things that no matter how much we want something or how hard we work that some things are not meant to be, it has to be in God’s plan for things to work out. The door before you is not meant for you, there is something greater for you to do and be patient and let God do His thing, He knows what He is doing and He knows what WE need and it is NEVER his intent for his children to hurt (Jeremiah 29:11). We are who hurt ourselves, emotionally, mentally, physically…. this is not of God.
So… will I ever learn? I think so, but that is the question that has been running through my head the past couple days. I know what I want and I know what I have. But is what I want… what God wants me to have? The answer is simply no. Sometimes NO can be good for us it’s not always negative, especially when someone who knows way way way more than I could even possibly begin to understand knows what’s best for me.
The things I have learned from this is that patience is highly recommended than being hasty. That cliche’ that good things come to those who wait should be taken seriously. I wish I would have listened earlier to that advice. I learned how to be happy on my own and used my own encouragement for not only others but myself and have made a few amazing friends around the world just. by. being. happy. I learned how to love completely, deeply and unselfishly. So yes, I was made to love everyone I have the honor of meeting, no matter how we have come to meet. And to those I do love, I truly mean it and want nothing more than to see you happy… ARE you happy? We need more encouragement and love in this world and I will always encourage… it’s just part of who I am. Sorry if this offends anyone, but I like being HAPPY and genuinely feeling GOOD. That doesn’t mean I won’t feel sad sometimes, just I am choosing a different viewpoint.