This past week has definitely been a journey for me. Tommy broke up with me this morning. I guess I saw it coming but I was upset. However, not with him but with myself. I get my self attached to easily and I end up getting hurt. Tommy and I ended on good terms though we are still friends but I have to give him his stuff back and I don’t want things to be awkward.
I’ve decided I’ll wait until prom this week is over to give him his stuff back. I haven’t decided if I want to see him alone so we can talk or go with Jane and just have things stay where they are. I want him to know that I do care about him and even though I’m upset I’ll get over it. But I also want to make sure that this isn’t one of those things where we break up and still hang out then end up hooking up just because I’m there. I want us to be friends again. I mean we were for 2 years and i want to at least have that with him with out it being weird. I’ve come to this confusing state in all of this.
I added Joey back on Facebook and we are supposed to Skype. I’m going to tell him about Tommy because he deserves to know. But I am explaining how I am not with him anymore. I’m not doing in it in hopes to get him back but just for the sake because he’s going to know I’m upset and I can’t lie to him.
This whole entry is all over the place because that’s where my head is. I’m so confused about everything right now. I don’t know how to really handle this right now. Most of my day was spent crying. I still feel like there is something bother me deeper then all of this and it’s killing me trying to figure it all out. I’m just confused.