I’m afraid to open myself up to you. You see it’s not you, and for once I’m not just saying it to make you feel better but for once it’s really me. I’m afraid to get hurt, afraid to let you see parts of me that even the sun and rain haven’t once touched. To me, love is vulnerability. To me, love is giving you so much power that even the president and monarchies of the world do not have. I am giving you power that only god can have. And I cannot, I will not put myself in the position to be burnt by the flames of our love. For me, to put all my hopes and faith into us, I cannot even wrap my head around it. I’m afraid to let you love me because I feel like you’re more at risk of getting hurt than I am.
All because I am afraid of loving, and so I am afraid of shattering your world.