I couldn’t kiss him. I wanted to and he tried but I wasn’t able to be open. After our fight last week and the things we both said and did. The things he said. How can I? He says he doesn’t want to get to know me. Doesn’t want to love me. Doesn’t want me. Yet we find ourselves alone together and dancing under the stars I wonder how much of that is true. The time apart left me able to handle our time together. The time apart makes me realize how much I care for him and want him to be a part of my life. I told him before that my heart is dead and for a while that was true but now he makes my heart burst with love and I stop and wonder if his heart is feeling the same. If we are truly connected at a soul level then he is feeling the same. I suppose only time will tell.. Hell we are in this “summer camp” together.