I have been struggling the past couple days…I don’t know why just feeling kind of down.
Everything seems to just be agitating me and rubbing me the wrong way.
I realized on the way to work this morning that I know part of it is that Sir will be gone for a few days…I felt this way last time he was out of town too but didn’t attribute it to him being gone. Then when I started feeling this way again, I realized, Wow…it has something to do with Sir leaving… I’ve never really had that reaction before about someone and that really scares me.
I feel slighted this morning. Last night Sir and I were going to play, have a nice beat down scene and after I received a pretty rough face fucking, Sir fell asleep and I worked on my resume. After we had talked about it, I had really been looking forward to last night. I was quite disappointed when Sir fell asleep.