I think the reason why my head seems to be so disorganized is because I allow it to be. I have got to come up with a simple way to be happy with myself.
Tonight I talked to Blossom. I asked her if she remembered when I told her I would leave her before I hurt her. Nervous, she responded, yes, and immediately why. I burst into tears and told her I think this is a little too late for that but I have to leave you. She asked when are you going to talk to me again. I couldn’t tell her when. I cried and my heart poured out. I told my love that I was so sorry I hurt her. She asked if she could call me tonight. I told her yes.
I won’t answer her. I need time. I need to get myself together.