Foolishly stuck…

I’m a fool. I’m a fool for him. I hate feeling like this. Not good enough. Not lovable. What’s wrong with me? Why do I feel this way? I feel this way even though I feel like I have no right to feel this way. I waste my days away for vague promises. For you. Pathetic, I am. No friends. No plans. Stuck here wondering. Hoping. Dreaming. Believing. In nothing. Something that doesn’t even exist. Something I wish with all my heart that would. But that’s just silly. And now I’m here reminding myself. Everything happens for a reason. Once again. I think. It’s apart of God’s plan. But how can I say that? A girl who hasn’t been to church in years. A girl who believes in a God. But doesn’t praise him every Sunday. Is that even right? Fair of me? Can I do that? Is that allowed? For a God who I believe loves unconditionally. It’s allowed. But is it heard? A girl can only hope.

2 thoughts on “Foolishly stuck…”

  1. Hi,i hear your frustration.

    Can i suggest a way that may help?

    Find a place away from people and have a few blank pages and a pen. Quieten your mind.
    Make two colums,split the page down the middle. On the left side list the things you want out of life,that iswithin your heart.
    The right hand collum write one word you can use to express how it can actualy happen.

    The same can be done with positives of one thing, the negatives on the otherside.

    This all heaps to refocus the mind and clear the clutter.

    Good luck.

  2. Sounds like you have many unanswered questions. I got a great suggestion:

    (Hebrews 11:6) “But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.”

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