Chasing (Un)Happiness

I just read something written by a girl in recovery. She said that it’s been 6 months, and her struggle is that she is bored. Recovery is boring. In the beginning it’s nice, it’s something to focus on all the time. But as time goes on, that burning desire to get better fades away. And then you start to miss the highs of the disorder. And even the lows. I miss the weak feeling I got and knowing it was because I’d gone the day without eating. I miss having something to fight for everyday. When recovery stops feeling like that, you start getting bored. You don’t have the highs or the lows. You don’t know what you are about anymore. You are just there.

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