Happy Birthday Puyel!!! It’s your 4th Birthday today. I wish you good health and happy day.
I’m sorry if I can’t be with you or even talk to you on your special day. That’s why I’m writing this journal in order to express what I want to say to my youngest daughter.
I love you so much, baby.. I know I haven’t been a good mom and I’ll apologize everyday for that.
Someday, when you’re old enough I’ll tell you my story. I don’t expect you to understand me or our situation. I just want you to know.. that’s it.
For today, I want you to enjoy your childhood without me. I hope you do know how hard this is for me but I just believe that I have to do this for now. Our time to be together will come, I just hope it won’t be too late for us by then.
It’s just so sad to think that you have go through every milestone of your life without me but I know you’ll get through everything because God will never leave you alone.
I can still remember the time when it was just the two of us, when you were so dependent to me on everything but all of that ended when I left you 10 months after you were born because I have to work overseas for you, my children. There is no one else I can rely when it comes to that but now I can’t even give you anything. I don’t even know if your Ate Elsa will receive my message to her and get my gift for you.
Till next time my child. You take care of yourself always. See you….