Step by Step
Sunday, Aug. 2, 2015
” …I had my first drink and I still remember it, for every ‘first’ drink afterwards did exactly the same trick – I could feel it go right through every bit of my body …But each drink after the ‘first’ seemed to become less effective and, after three or four, they all seemed like water. …(T)he more I drank, the quieter I got, and the drunker I got, the harder I fought to stay sober. …Even that first night I blacked out, which leads me to believe that I was an alcoholic from my very first drink.” – Alcoholics Anonymous, 3rd Edition, 1976, “Personal Stories,” Ch 6 (“The Vicious Cycle”), p 241.
Today, grant that I always remember my last drink if I cannot remember my first – for it is the last one that brought me to my knees and set me on my search for something better. Even if I cannot remember the first drink or whether I became alcoholic with my first or 1,000th one, I cannot forget that I was in alcoholism with my last drink. And if I can’t remember my last drink, it might not really be my last one; thus, the reason for AA . Regardless of how recently or long ago my last drink was, AA is here to strengthen and guide me from the next drink. Today, I am only as good as the guy whose last drink was yesterday even if mine was a thousand yesterdays ago and, today, I will remember my last drink. And our common journey continues. Step by step. – Chris M., 2015