Today has been one if not the toughest day of my life. I’ve let ppl down most of my life but this time is the worst. But I will not get into details of my mistakes but use this journal as a way to transmit my progress to myself foremost and to the people in my life that mean everthing to me. Today I was able to realize that being alone is not a good feeling but knowing that I have an opportunity to change my ways gives me stength and hope. I leased my place today which is a good start and now I am heading to my first meeting. I will post tomorrow about it.