lately i’ve been over thinking a lot of things, almost everything.
my relationship with god
my relationship with my boyfriend and friends
and with having no one to turn too, i came here….
i feel like i can always turn to god no matter what. he has always been there to me, i just talk to him and i just feel so much more relieved from everything. talking to him just relaxes me. but i always feel like the devil is just waiting of me to mess up and is tempting me all the time. its just all very conflictingg.
I’ve lost a lot of friends this summer but i also gained an amazing boyfriend. and i know there are reasons why i lost those friends but they have been there for me for a lot of important things. so now i only have like 2/3 good friends but they are always so busy with their own lives i don’t really have anyone to talk too and when we do all get together i don’t want to talk to anything because i never want to bother them with my problems because they always have their own.
my boyfriend and i have been going out for 6 months and it still a learning about each other everyday. how jealous he get, how he makes a big thing out of little things sometimes. how over protected he gets over certain things. we are growing and learning but also arguing over the littlest of things for no reason. i know it will all be worth it in the end but its so just exhausting right now.