Today was absolutely crazy. There’s been this girl I’ve known the past year or so, she’s beautiful and sweet and kind. We’ve dated a few times, but I always push her away. I don’t understand why, but I do. It’s awful because I’m pretty sure I”m in love with her. I’ve written her poems, remembered her favorite flower (Daisy). About a month or so ago, we fought really badly and we went a month without talking and we started talking again. I was nervous and shaky and scared. I apologized, I had been planning this really long, heart felt apology for weeks. She forgave me and we made up. I think we’re dating again, but it was just a few kisses and that was it. I’m hoping that we’re dating.. Do you ever just get that feeling of over whelming love for someone? Like, they make you so happy, so care free, that you just don’t know what to do with yourself? You want to run through a field and jump with joy but you also want to curl up on a couch and hold them tight. You want to do everything with them, but you want to do-nothing with them. No matter what you’re doing, as long as you’re with them, you’re okay. You’re better.. healed, like their love, their being there is enough to just make you lose your mind. Sometimes, I don’t know what to do with myself. Anyways, I’ll update tomorrow (today) on whats going on. If you’re awake out there, goodnight.