I think I will write these entries in letter format. I have heard that that is the easeist way to start a journal and not feel weird about writing to yourself…. so here goes nothing.
Dear (insert name here) ((I’ll think of what to call you later))…..
I am not quite sure where to begin. Maybe I should start by telling you a little about me. Who am I? I am me. I love reading, probably more than any normal 19 year old girl. I have a passion for music and I play the guitar, ukulele, piano, drums and I sing. I currently live in San Antonio, Texas, but I have moved around a lot growing up. I was born in North Dakota and then we moved to Houston, Texas, The Bay Area in California, San Antonio, then another house also in San Antonio, then up towards Dallas, and then I moved out to come back to San Antonio for school. I have three siblings; an older brother (30), an older sister (25), and a younger sister (16). My family is quite dysfunctional, but isn’t everyone’s. I don’t think there is such a thing as normal. Another thing about me is that I was born with a genetic condition that makes my body unable to process folate properly. Without folate, I can’t produce my own melatonin, seratonin, etc. It causes a whole bunch of physical problems as well as mental health issues. I grew up having severe panic attacks and asthma and we didn’t know what caused any of it until I was 15. Then we find out that there is a way to correct the mutation, not a cure, but a correction. I have to take folate pills to basically flood my system with it sot hat when my body rejects it, some still gets through. But there is such a thing as over dosing on it, and having too much is the same as not having enough. It also isn’t covered by any insurance because it is basically just a higher prescription strength of a vitamin. I also have to see a genetic specialist in a town 4 hours away because he is the only one in the state that has any remote experience with this specific condition. The most ironic thing of all: it is called MTHFR (methylenetetrahydrofolate reductase). Yes that is the real abbreviation for it. Looks a lot like mother fu***r right? Well that is exactly what it is too.
We can go into more detail to that later. I don’t want to let it define who I am either. So if I go on a rant about it, I apologize in advance. Anyway, thanks for listening.
Talk to you soon,