Lately… for the past couple months or so my anger has been really intense. It’s gets so bad that I’ll get migraines and lash out on undeserving things… or I just shut down completely. I don’t know, is this post me admitting I need help? Asking for help? Hoping I can help myself? What? I’m on the brink of ruining my most important relationships and I know it… I just can’t control myself. I can’t help but feel monstrous. I’m tired of snapping at my boyfriend for no reason and realizing a second too late how uncalled for my words or actions are, I’m sick of the pent up anger at my mom for her wrongdoings. I’m so angry at myself for being who I am, for feeling this need to be so angry. I used to be happy. What happened? I sit here violently painting picture and pacing the perimeters of my house searching for answers within myself, looking for relief. I try journaling and meditation and find no peace. I think there is something seriously wrong with me. This isn’t run of the mill moody.
i'm 19 years old. I live in the rainy Pacific Northwest region of the U.S. I'm an overthinker, a daydreamer, and I'm a singer... not a speaker. But journaling my thoughts is supposed to be good for me, so why not. -CurrentlyLostGirl