All my elders always told me to LIVE MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST. So that’s what I’ve been doing. But no matter how much I try to I just always end up messing stuff up. I’ve tried making everything better but its not working. I’m trying to be a better person by helping people. Also by walking away when stuff get’s out of hand. To be honest I really don’t know what I’m going to do anymore. Sometimes I wish it will just be all over. Just have people leave me alone and let me do what I want and when I want. I make youtube videos and I have lots of suscribers. Youtube is where I feel loved and relaxed.