I told myself that I didnt really like him. That I only had interest because of all the people flocking to him- hes like a magnet- and I cant explain how everyone is just drawn to him. myself included. But I went there. I think deep down I knew it would happen the way that it happened. And its wonderful. But being the self sabotager that I am, how long could it possibly last. I am overly critical like my mother and his little flaws will grow into a reason for me to end it, just as I have ended every other relationship.
Like the fact that he doesnt want to use condoms. That right there is a deal breaker because I dont want kids.
but he is so sweet. and totally cool, and funny. and great in bed. *sigh* this is a dilema.
There is an excitement i feel when Im around him that I cant really describe or explain. Like just being near him is soul food.
Maybe its cause he is so much like myself.
Im not sure if thats a good thing or a very bad thing.
Only time will tell.