Recently I lost someone who I loved and considered my best friend. She passed away from cancer two days ago and I don’t know how to deal with it. I’m scared that she can’t hear me when I try to talk to her. I pray to God that she is in a better place now, but I get really angry at God for letting this happen to her. Last night I started screaming and throwing things around my room and crying uncontrollably. All I do is cry and feel nothing. My whole body feels numb and empty and I feel dead inside. I was supposed to see her the day after she died. I regret not being able to see her sooner and getting to say goodbye and that I love her. I’m so scared and sad and I don’t know how to handle it.