I really feel like I have no idea what I am doing. I am in a relationship that I don’t really want to be in all the time. I am always trying to work on things with him but he makes me feel alone. So why am I staying? Maybe I am scared to be alone? Maybe I am scared of my life without him? I do love him and I know he loves me but I’m tired of all the fighting and I have cried too many tears already. I just want to feel beautiful again. I feel like if I were to get graded on my life I would get an F- So everyday I ask myself “what am I doing” and its always the same answer. I have no idea. I just really don’t know how I got here.