Idk what I am doing

I really feel like I have no idea what I am doing. I am in a relationship that I don’t really want to be in all the time. I am always trying to work on things with him but he makes me feel alone. So why am I staying? Maybe I am scared to be alone? Maybe I am scared of my life without him? I do love him and I know he loves me but I’m tired of all the fighting and I have cried too many tears already. I just want to feel beautiful again. I feel like if I were to get graded on my life I would get an F- So everyday I ask myself “what am I doing” and its always the same answer. I have no idea. I just really don’t know how I got here.

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  1. Thanks for your comments. On one hand I am sorry yall are going thru this but on the other I am happy to know I am not the only one. My problem is that I cannot let go of things he’s done in the past. Even though he has changed. I mean truly changed and proven it. He isn’t the selfish guy I was on again off again with anymore but idk why I still feel like he is.

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