I just so desperately wish my boyfriend would do something with me..anything. I feel so worthless to him. I can never do anything right. I just want to feel like i’m in love again. I want to be happy. I cant help but think i might just have to accept that we will never work and move on with my life. I hope that i find the right person for me, someone who makes me happy and makes me feel good about myself. I need someone in my life who has a positive effect, not negative. Right now when someone says relationship or boyfriend i have nothing but sad thoughts. I want that to change so bad. I keep trying to tell my boyfriend but i don’t want to hurt him. But then again he hurts me over and over and doesn’t seem to mind it much. I’m sick of never doing anything together. How am i supposed to find love and happiness again if we never do anything. Its just disappointment over and over again. I’m not sure how much more i can take. I look at other peoples relationship and wish it was my own. I wish i was happy and i wish i felt better than i have been. I’ve been with him for a year and 4 months and for some reason i really don’t think this is what its supposed to be like. I understand he has a job and friends but i’m in his life too. He makes me feel like i’m just something he needs to get out of the way so he can go do what he actually wants to do. I really don’t know what to do. I love him and want to make this work but i really don’t know if it will. How much more heartbreak do i have to go through to realize that enough is enough. I keep thinking what my life would be like if i was with someone else..someone who had time for me and someone who’s family wanted me to be in their life. I’m so tired of feeling down, i just want to feel good again..